11.29.09

so thanksgiving "break" is over.
i cant complain, i had some good times with my family. didnt over eat and the leftovers are still lingering around...idk how much we have left though. anyway, it felt good to know that my friends were in town from their separate colleges. ((tahirah if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU BEBIII))
however, there were two people i would have liked to see but didnt get to. its okay though.

so....my mom is always saying how i should be comfortable with telling her things and blah blah blah...so i did.
i told her about boy#1.
MISTAKE MISTAKE MISTAKE.
i told her i didnt want any serious relationships. that means i dont want to be anyones girlfriend right now. but she saying things like "dont catch yourself in a relationship where he doesnt believe in God"..u know..as if we're getting married in June.
mother please. all of that serious stuff is not on my mind. im NINETEEN. leave it alone.
and even though i dont want a relationship, i find myself getting attached. i dont think anyone should be "lonely" during the holidays. if hes not around then i'd definitely be lonely and i dont want that.

so how many of us are truly thankful for the people we have around us? do we really appreciate them? of all the people i met in high school i feel that the majority of them will lose touch with me (and vice versa) within the next five years. its sad, really.
i like you people, but if you dont try, i wont try any longer.

good night.