learn to fly...but all alone.

just for the heck of it.
im feeling lonely again.
and i havent the slightest idea of what to do about it.
im beginning to wish i didnt stay home for my first two years of college. i think im being robbed of the experiences i should be experiencing. but oh well, what can i do now? i might as well finish my A.A. here at home. im 62% done.

i've been wondering for a while now what it could be like to have a pen pal. well my brother went to the Marines a little over a month ago and we've been writing back and forth but thats my BROTHER. i want a FRIEND.
i have one actually...
he left to the army in october and put up his mailing address. i didnt think i should write him at first.
but now im thinking i should send a little something to my New Years Eve love. (dont ask.) i do miss him (quiet.)

also...im at the point where im questioning my major. do i really want to be a nurse? if so...do i really want to run around whiping ass cracks for the rest of my life? or do i want to specialize? of course i want to specialize. i'll figure out what i really want to specialize in later.
but for now...62% of my associates is not cutting it for me. i want to be in nursing school already. im beginning to abhor the classroom setting (aaaah u like that word. ABHOR.)
also...i need a JOB. so i can quit having my mom pay tuition and do the damn thing myself. yeah...

oh well enough for now. back to my Human growth and development studying. i have a quiz tomorrow. pray for me.

darkness in the night, i'll have a light for you...